misguidance (misguidance) wrote,

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A reading for the new month.

I had some really awful dreams last night- some because they were just horrific, others because they were really emotional.  I dream a lot about my mother, who never believed in an afterlife but who always seems keen to speak to me when I do dream about her.  She was the bane of my life, but also my best friend.  It always leaves me feeling very conflicted.

I always try to do a card reading on the day after Hallowe'en.  I have done for years, but my last deck got tainted after my suicide attempt, and it's taken a long time for me to get up the nerve to get a new deck.  I eventually bought some a few weeks ago, and have been too nervous to do anything with them.  Probably shouldn't have been a surprise therefore when I opened the box and they fell all over the floor- so eager to tell me something that they practically jumped out and shouted it at me!  ^__-;

I picked up the first 3 cards I saw face up, and have laid them out in the order that I saw them.  It's telling me about what I would expect: If I can curb my addictions (for me, that's junk food, shopping and hoarding) then my life will improve.  

It's a fairly simple message, but given that I'm on an emotional down-swing at the moment, it's nice to see my own thoughts laid out so clearly when they get so tangled up in my head.  That's one of the things I have always liked about spirit cards- it's like having a direct line to your own common sense.

I have a whole week of work ahead of me (yay annual leave!) so it's as good a time as any to try and start sorting this stuff out.  I rearranged my whole bedroom to accommodate Opal's new vivarium, so now is a good time for me to sift through all my junk and see what can be parted with and what should be kept.  Days off also mean time to cook, so I'm going to try and get back to eating more healthily.  It's not so much about my weight- I've made peace with being fat, it no longer bothers me- but junk food makes me feel ill, even though I'm addicted to it. -__-;  I don't like that feeling- and even though my weight loss was a bust when I was on the Slimming World diet, I did have more energy and I did feel a lot better.  That's what I need to go for- feeling good, rather than losing weight.  Luckily it's stew season, and nothing goes better in a stew than lots of fresh veg! 

In Other News:
Zipper had his unofficial birthday yesterday.  He remains small and adorable, although he's grown a lot since I got him- he's now 2ft 6inches long, making him bigger than Opal was when I first got her! O_O   It says a lot about how big Rambo and Opal are that he still looks so tiny to me!

Speaking of Rambo, he's going back to the vet in a week for a check-up, and then he is also going into a new vivarium.  This will leave Opal's old viv free for Zipper to move into (once he's a little bigger, unless I can Zipper-proof it, which might be possible- we'll see...).  I'm not planning on getting any more snakes, but it will be nice to have Zipper's tank on hand.... just in case. ^__-.

Ad says I'm going to end up running a corn snake sanctuary once I get a bigger house.  
He's probably not wrong. >_>;
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